Blog 69

Today was so dreary, I just felt like sleeping or lying around.  I had to concentrate on psych today because we have a quiz tomorrow, and even though it is only worth 8 pts., it does make me start to study early for the exams.  The bad thing is that if I don’t do well on it I start to really panic when getting ready for the exam.  You wouldn’t think that would be the case  but . . .I think psych has been a lot harder than I expected.  I took it in high school and did really well, in fact I was thinking of changing my major to psych.  After the first midterm I knew that wouldn’t be the case.  I don’t really understand how memorizing 75 vocabulary words in such a way that helps you answer multiple choice questions is really learning.  I found flashcard maker on the internet, so I just keep practicing the words using this “game” and I began doing much better on the tests.  The thing is, I don’t think I am really learning very much.  I  learned so much last year, this class not so much.  That is disappointing to me.  Now I am looking at the extra credit paper that is due on Friday, it is only half a page single spaced, and I don’t have a clue exactly what it is that they want.  Is it so difficult to explain things in straightforward English so as not to make the class any more confusing than it has already been?

Blog 68

Last night was pretty fun.  After all of us on the floor realized that we have a boatload of work to do between now and the end of finals, and after complaining instead of actually doing any of it, we decided to continue to procrastinate by decorating cookies for Christmas.  I brought back some Christmas sugar cookies to share with my good friends here on my floor, but before it was all said and done there were 8 of us working to decorate on these cookies.  Some of the gingerbread kids were decapitated and missing limbs by the time I actually got them here, but they tasted great all the same.  It was fun to do this together, because I didn’t get to do them at home like we normally would have the weekend after Thanksgiving, I intend to do some when I get home after finals.  You can never have too many!  My friends were impressed that the dough was actually homemade and not the stuff out of the tube, real butter makes a difference in the taste for sure.

Lets see, the other stuff I want to make when I get home are snickerdoodles, actual gingerbread boys, buckeyes (of course), fudge, caramels (I need my aunts help on that one, not too good with the candy thermometer), and I have a gingerbread house that I am supposed to put together from a kit with my friend.  I think I know what I will be doing once I am home with nothing to do!  

Blog 67

Dear Big 10 Officials,

This blog is devoted to you.  I have never seen such blatant, poor throwing of flags in my entire life.  I have been watching football my entire life, and normally in a room full of people who have either been playing, coaching, or refereeing football their entire lives, and none of them would have been any too happy with your calls today. 

What was the problem exactly?  Were our Bucks getting too feisty out there?  Did Posey crossing himself after making that awesome catch in the endzone  offend you, or was it the fact that he made an O with his hands afterwards?  I am pretty sure that our players have been doing that the entire season and it has never been called before.  In fact, he was not the only player to make this gesture during the game and this is the only time it was called!  I don’t understand.

I have a neighbor, more like a grandpa, who refereed in the Big 10 for 15 years.  He was inducted into the Ohio Referees Hall of Fame.  I think he knows his stuff.  He always said that if you realized he is on the field, then he wasn’t doing his job.  There should never be a time when his decision making should be the determination for the outcome of the game.  I am pretty sure that he turned over in his grave several times today, God rest his soul.

In closing, I would just like to say that I am glad that the OSU-Michigan game was won in spite of your calls today.  You should be ashamed.

Blog 66 for sure

I have decided that I do need to do Blog 66, and that I am really getting confused by all of these really with it people working ahead.  I am going to do my “66” today, which is really for Saturday, because I think that blogging will be the last thing on my mind tomorrow.  I am so excited to go to my first OSU –Michigan game tomorrow.  I have been going to friend’s homes for years to watch this game on television and have family gatherings, and I am finally one of those students in the stands actually cheering on her team.  It is really thrilling to think about.

I helped the family put up the Christmas tree today, usually we wait a little longer but I didn’t want them to do it without me.  It is always cool to get out all of the ornaments because they are mostly from places we have visited over the years.  They all bring back so many memories.  Then there are the ones that I made when I was in elementary school, with the obligatory school picture glues on it somewhere.  Oh my, those are always a shocker year after year.  I have decided to bring a few holiday items back up with me so that things will seem kind of festive in my room.  I brought lights to put around my bed/desk area that seems to be my only space to call my own.  This will make it seem a little more warm and cheery I think.  

65? or 66

Well I guess when I leave to go back to Stradley Hall, 6^th floor…that my thanksgiving break here in Trenton Ohio is officially over!  I am so sad that today is the day I have to go back, I would love to have just one more…even thought I come back in a week and a half, so it’s really not that bad.  And since the Michigan game is this weekend that will be an ice distraction! I’m so excited for that game!! And to kick some wolverine butt!!  It shall be one epic weekend if I do say so myself.  I plan on not sleeping until Sunday (meaning really Saturday night but not until the A.M. ).  I have heard many stories about this weekend and I am ready to make some of my own!  If only my family knew what I was doing, They are all about the right choices and I guess you could say that they wouldn’t approve of some of mine.  But hey what they don’t know won’t hurt them is my philosophy!  I mean I don’t want anyone to think I’m doing all of these horrible things, just things normal, everyday college student things!  Wow it’s getting harder and harder to think of things to write about.  I feel like I have told my life story on here.  Actually I’m positive that I have written about pretty much anything anyone would want to know about me!  Oh well it’s not that bad and I hope I’m not boring!

Blog 64

Thanksgiving was pretty crazy today, as it always is.  We hung out together, all 45 of us, for 6 hours in 3 rooms that were just so incredibly loud that I had to come home and take a 2 hour nap.  The desserts were pretty awesome, and the antics were as ridiculous as always.  I have missed my family, but I think I should be good to go for another month at least.

I worked on my Common Place paper a little more today.  I think it is interesting to work on it forever, and then look at Leslie’s comments and not have seen the obvious things that she pointed out.  I guess that is why it is always good to get someone else to proof-read your stuff, but that is easier said than done!

Heading back to Columbus tomorrow evening, excited for the game – but really haven’t gotten a chance to see my friends because they have to hang out with their families until tomorrow night. Of course I will be gone by then!  I think I am glad that this won’t be happening again next year because it isn’t fair to have this little vacation cut so short.  I am glad that we only have one more week of classes and then finals.  I am ready to get back here and veg out for a while.  It isn’t like all of this is impossibly hard, it is just that it is constant.  School is surrounding you 24 hours a day and you really can’t get away from it. 

63

Leslie said I needed to “tighten up my language” of my first paragraph so please tell me what you think!

One day I was eavesdropping on a conversation between two of my friends, which I should not have done but did nonetheless.  The conversation bothered me because Alicia was talking to Sam about her weight.  This girl, who is one of the most slender girls I know, proceeded to say, “ I can’t even look at myself anymore, I’m way too fat and I have tried everything. I don’t know what else to do.”   Of course Sam told her she was crazy, but then the conversation took a turn that was really quite disturbing to me.  The two of them began talking about purging to get thin. It sickened me to think that someone I cared about was considering resorting to literally making herself sick to get thinner than she already was.   I couldn’t believe that anyone would go to such lengths to try to lose weight, but especially when her weight is already so low.  What in the world made her think that she was not already attractive and her current, healthy weight?  I believe the answer to this can be found in the many images of young women seen all around us. Unrealistic images that we are all subjected to daily without even realizing it. We are being pulled into a very unhealthy way of thinking.

            It’s still a work in progress so your comments will help very much!

Blog 62

Watching Battlestar Gallactica today was rather difficult, and at first I thought it was just because I was looking forward to starting the vacation and all of the Michigan Week stuff going on.  I think I was really having a hard time really getting into it because of the special effects!  I kept thinking about how I am sure all of the filming, special effects, etc. was state of the art for when it was filmed, but it just doesn’t compare to what we have today.  As I have said in a couple of past blogs, I really got into Avatar this past year – and I was really shocked by that.  I think the parts that really got to me were when the Avatars were flying through the air, I felt like I was flying too.   What an awesome feeling, and other than jumping out of a plane, I think it may be as close as I am ever going to get!  The special effects in Battlestar Gallactica just didn’t come across to me the same way and therefore I found it hard to become a part of the story.  I know that the storyline was not so bad, I felt myself get involved in an emotional sense, but any sort of movie can do that.  Science Fiction is supposed to be different, it is supposed to make you believe that “really out of this world” stuff could really happen, it is reality.  I just didn’t feel that way at all.  Again, I am sure if I were not spoiled by today’s special effects I would not have had a problem with it.  

Blog 61

Okay everyone, could we have a little dialogue about these memos.  My impression is that we are having a workday tomorrow, so we need to have our paper with a few comment ideas that we would make.  I am good with this, if I understand everything correctly.  My comments about general changes to the paragraphs are easy, like I would mention this here or move that there.  I am unsure how to show grammatical error changes or punctuation problems (mostly commas).  I don’t want to rewrite the paragraphs because I don’t think that sounds like a memo at all.  Does anyone have any ideas on this?  What is the best way to show this, and I am not sure what a memo is exactly unless it is kind of like the comments Leslie left for us on Carmen.  Any and all thoughts are welcome!

I was really hoping to know what the grade on the common place paper would be by now, just so I know whether or not I am going to be going over it again over Thanksgiving break.  I am sure she is very bogged down with her own stuff that is due, but I am anxious all the same.

It really is hard to believe that we are on the final countdown with this quarter.  Wow, what a ride.  I have felt really confused at times, but I must admit that it did help me to read these blogs to know that I wasn’t the only one and I was able to figure some things out based upon your comments.  Thanks!

60

Ok so I’m having a dilemma, to go home Tuesday night at like midnight not to go home Tuesday night at midnight.  My amazing mother said that she would leave my house at ten o’clock to come get me so I can still go out and have fun, but do I go?  I have heard many stories about how the night of the Michigan game is THE craziest night up here.  On one hand usually by twelve thirty, many people go ahead and call it a night and I probably wouldn’t be missing too much.  On the other hand it’s the night of the Michigan game and who wants to miss out on that.  I have wanted to go home sooo bad though and that means a whole extra day with my family and an extra night sleeping in my bed.  I am just up a creek here!   I just don’t know what the heck to do!  Ugh, so frustrating.  Anyways I figured out who I’m living with next year and I’m so excited!! We have been talking all weekend about finding houses and what all we need to do and it just got me so ready to not be living in a place where I’m scared to not wear shoes in the shower…or the whole bathroom for that matter! I’m also ready to have my own room again, living in such a small place with someone is torture!  We get along fine and I really like her but I want my own room so bad! Sorry I have just been complaining this whole time but I had nothing else to write about!

Blog 59

I get to go to Pickerington today to watch the game.  I have been really excited to go because my friend has invited some of us to go to her house and eat food and hang out with her family for a while.  I really enjoy my friends, but I am excited to be around a family for a little while.  There is something a little bit strange about being around people who are only your age 99% of the time, I don’t think there is any other situation other than living in a freshman dorm where you will ever experience this again.  (Well, maybe an old folks home).  Go bucks and go real food! 

On another sporting note, who the heck thought that playing a football game at Wrigley would be a great idea?  Did you see the pics of the goalpost attached to the outfield wall?  Surely someone will be losing a job over not figuring this out until the week of the game.  I can’t wait to watch just a couple of minutes of this to see them continue to switch sides of the field.  It will be like watching a high school scrimmage again!  I just can’t get over it.

One final sporting idea, of sorts, comes to my mind to finish up my blog for this Saturday.  Ochocinco engaged?  Seems like maybe this season has really gotten to him, maybe he is going to grow up and be a professional/adult now?  I am an Ocho fan, yes he is a Facebook friend, but it is time for him to get with it!

Blog 58

I again got mixed up on when I was supposed to writing something from class and when I am to do my own blogging.  I hope I am writing this early enough that it counts.  We watched Battlestar Gallactica in class yesterday, and it wasn’t too bad.  I just don’t know if I can get into the robot stuff, seems a little too weird to me that people are having sex with robots, and know it.  I think you really have to be into sci-fi to go for that storyline, yeah.  It also seemed a little more gruesome than what we have been watching before now too.  Snapping baby’s heads isn’t my idea of fun, nor anyone else’s.  The one thing I have to say about Firefly is that I did enjoy the humor that threaded throughout the episodes, and I think BG is really lacking in this – at least so far.  In fact my friends are threatening to get me the entire set of Firefly for Christmas just so I can have a lasting memory of my journey through freshman English and my intro to sci-fi.  I think I would probably watch it with my friends over Christmas break; it is weird but fun at the same time.  Back to BG, I think I may enjoy it more as we get more into it.  I wasn’t crazy about FF at first either until we got to know the characters and the storyline made sense.  As an aside, I think I must like sci-fi more than I realized.  Avatar is one of my all time favorite movies, and it never really occurred to me just how “out there” it really is.  Maybe I am a fan after all.  

57

Why do people have to be bullies?  I watched The Benchwarmers tonight with my friend Jess (because everyone went to see Harry Potter and we don’t really like those movies very much).  As I was watching it I was thinking how realistic it actually was.  This movie is about how mean kids can be to one another and how it really affects them.  The Benchwarmers started a team however and played for all the kids that never got to because of bullies.  This made  me upset because I have some friends that got severely bullied in middle school that they never got over it.  Some of them still hold grudges against those people and it’s very sad to me.  I was bullied in middle school but not like these kids.  Why can’t kids just get along?  I wish the real world could end up like that movie…all of the kids became friends and let the Benchwarmers no get blown out, it was 44 to 0 so there is no way they could let them win without it taking all night!  Why can’t people just realize how much people really get hurt through bullying.  There are cases where people actually kill themselves they have been bullied so much.  That’s how mean kids can actually be, and that is a very sad reality.  I feel like each gender bullies in it’s own way.  Girls for example just gossip and make the other girls feel bad about themselves, boys on the other hand are just violent and mean. I think this must be changed.

56

Tonight I saw the movie Inception.  It was one of the best movies I have seen in a while by far.  Probably in my top ten!  At fist the movie really had me confused.  I had no idea what in the world was going on.  All I knew was shit was crazy and people were turning buildings upside down.  I sat there thinking am I really going to waste my time watching something I’m going to be completely lost through?  I went with my friend though so I knew if I left that she would leave and I didn’t want to do that because I’m the one who wanted to go in the first place.  As I kept watching though it started making more and more sense and it got easier to follow the more I figured out how they were setting everything up.  The people who made that movie are genus.  It was never boring and it was freaking crazy and awesome all at the same time.  I was on the edge of my seat the whole time.  Now I sound like a movie critic so I’ll move on from talking about the awesomeness of this move.  Anyways so when the movie is almost finished/ finished, I was like tripping out.  It had m thinking what if this world is really a dream of mine and everyone was just a projection.  I mean obviously I realize that’s stupid… or is it?  I still am worked up over it! What if this isn’t the real world…

55

About a week ago I signed up to give blood in my dorm building for the “blood battle” against Michigan.  I got myself all worked up all week about because I do not do blood very well.  Last time I gave blood I was at my high school and I passed out 4 times after and then they made my father come get me and made me go home.  If that isn’t reason enough to be nervous the others times I have had to have blood drawn I have passed out as well.  Needless to say this is not that grand of an idea. 

            Anyways so I made sure I signed up with a friend who would go down there with me and be there while it happens for support.  I ate right all day and was calming myself down for the big moment.  They finally called my name to get “questioned: and my heart dropped.  I walk back there and answer all the questions they ask and it seemed to be going fairly well.  Then I had to fill out a questionnaire on the computer.  It asked all these questions about sexual contact and pairings and disease and stuff about leaving the country.  I knew as soon as I answered yes to “ have you been to Africa in the last 12 months” this was not going to end well.  I went to France, Spain and Morocco over the summer.  I was only in Morocco for one day, not a big deal right?  Oh don’t you worry…it was.  They said I can’t give blood for a year and sent me packing.  But I still got my shirt! 

Blog 54

Today I am going to vent about signing up for classes for the first time without someone there holding my hand.  I am not going to say that it was hard, it was just frustrating.  Being one of the last people, evidently, to get an open window, I was left with all of the crappy times like late Friday and 8:30 in the morning MONDAY THROUGH THURSDAY!   I did not take any honors classes because I was trying to just get used to being here as a freshman, and I am not an athlete, so evidently I got what was left.  As if this wasn’t bad enough, and after running the degree audit with my advisor’s signature, it appears that I did not have the prerequisite to take one of my classes.  I am not sure how this got past him, he is a pretty knowledgeable guy, but this caused me to get very nervous and upset.  Then, in one of my classes I was on a waiting list.  By the time I figured out what prerequisite class I needed, I was no longer on a waiting list in the other class.  I guess alls well that ends well, after feeling like I was developing an ulcer, I am now a full time student again next quarter and I do not hate OSU anymore. On a brighter note, I was so tired from working through this and screaming that I did take a little nap to calm down.  I really think I probably overreacted (in fact I know I did) but I don’t have a lot of patience for red tape.  

Blog 53

There is absolutely nothing so much fun to watch is a great football game.  I thought my Bucks were coming out totally flat, and totally were in the first half, but back in the second half ready to go!  They were that number one championship team that we were all so excited about the very first week of the season!  Oh, what an awesome game to watch.  A bunch of friends from high school were up here this weekend, we managed to get tickets for all of them, it was an awesome time to be with everyone again in such a great environment!  It is funny how much you miss the people that you tend to take for granted, like these kids that I have known forever.  We are so much closer now than we were then, I have to say that this is something I didn’t expect.

I haven’t really done anything academic in a few days, so now that it is Sunday I really need to get my mind geared towards being studious again.  I think I need to get a bunch of reading done, so it is off to the library where the distractions are far less than here at my desk.  I also really need to start thinking about some good topics for these blogs because I feel guilty about making those of you who are going through actually reading this continue to focus on this much too long sentence and my blabbering!  I am going to finish now and move on to the next item on my to do list!

Blog 52

I was looking through my Buckeye Link the other day and happened to hit the exam schedule tab.  I was really shocked to see that we are scheduled to have an English exam on Dec. 9^th.  I have looked through the grades that were set up on Carmen, and there is nothing on there about an exam grade.  I looked through the syllabus too and I don’t see any mention of it.  Those of you who are not freshman like me, would they schedule an exam but we still wouldn’t really necessarily have one? ( My Mom said they used to make people write out essays for Freshman English finals.  She said it was really funny because hundreds of people would be streaming out of the freshman dorms at the same time to go to their appointed place to sit and write endlessly for an hour, but you have to remember that this was before personal computers, Ha!)  I was really hoping I was going to be able to get out of here on that Wednesday night, I already found a ride home, but I didn’t think we were having an exam.  Let me know what you know please!.  It feels really awesome to get that final big project done for this class, as least I think it is the final big project.  I am a little curious to know what this memo writing is going to be, and I guess we have some sort of packet project – but these seem like group projects to me.  I  haven’t worked on one of those in a while, so that should be interesting.

Blog 51

A lot of people have been writing about their Thanksgiving family traditions and looking forward to these activities in a couple of weeks.  I too have been thinking about this lately.  My father is one of 6 kids, and the rest are girls.  We have about 45 people in our immediate family because I am the 3^rd to youngest of 14 grandkids.  My cousins are all married, divorced, and married again with 3 to 4 kids a piece by now!  We all go to my Aunt Diane’s where everyone has to bring 3 dishes.  My aunt tries very hard to make sure that no one duplicates a dish, but it happens from time to time.  People usually bring what everyone requests, which is considered that family’s specialty.  After the meal, we pick names for Christmas.  My Aunt Hope is usually in charge of this, but every year she loses track of who has picked and who hasn’t so we end up having to tell whose name we picked and it is no longer a surprise.  I don’t mind this so much because then I look for the person with my name and I ask for a gift card from my favorite store, like maybe Forever 21 or Kohls, and then I can actually use what I get.  I remember reading about someone’s family playing games the rest of the day.  We can not do this because this family is so darned competitive that it gets totally out of hand.  Aunt Diane had to put a stop to games because it was important that everyone still be speaking when the day was over and hopefully show up for Christmas, which is at my house!   

Blog 50

I am going to talk about how picky I am about food today.  I have always been the type of person that decided she liked to eat something, and then eats it for forever until she can’t stand the sight of it again.  When I was little, I ate chicken nuggets for every dinner.  I would eat nothing if I didn’t eat chicken nuggets!  My Mom gave in because the doctor told her to, and I didn’t weigh anything at all anyway so I guess they were afraid I would starve.  I have gone through this with blueberry bagels, steak and mashed potatoes, and I am currently going through a Mark Pi’s Express phase .  Is it bad that when I walk in the door they ask me if I want my usual?  They know I don’t want the green onions and I would like to have 2 fortune cookies!  I think this might be a bad thing, but nothing else sounds good to me and it is so close.  In fact, it is getting to the point where I am pretty much just eating one meal a day.  I guess that is good because the ginger chicken is probably full of so many calories I don’t even want to know!!!  My fortune cookie last night was awesome, it said, “A fun party is sure to be in your future.”  I sure hope that is the case, because I have not attended any fun parties lately and I think maybe I am due!  

Blog 49

This blog is going to be about procrastination.  I am one of the world’s worst procrastinators.  I am making myself do this right now because I know I am going to hang out tonight with my friends, since we have no classes tomorrow, and I could quite possibly end up doing this at 4 a.m.  – or forget about it altogether.  I really hate forgetting to do the blog because it is such an easy thing to get full credit for, and yet I think I have forgotten completely once or twice.  I really kick myself when that happens.  So back to procrastination.  It isn’t like it is that hard to get 250 words going, but sometimes I just can’t think of anything else to blabber on about!  I think I may have used up all of the interesting things there are for me to tell.  I have done pretty well with commenting, as I know most of you are probably very tired of seeing me commenting on everything  you post by now, because I have decided to pretend as though I am just on facebook looking around at my friend’s pages and making goofy remarks.  It is a known fact that I am addicted to facebook, at least that is what everyone else tries to say.  I really don’t think that I am, but I am usually afraid that I will miss something fun that someone is doing, even though I know it will still be there tomorrow!  Maybe I am not as much of a procrastinator as I thought because it is 6:05 and I have just turned in my blog!

48

Today was GLEE and it couldn’t of ended my day better.  Even though Mr.Shoe kissed Coach and was really awkward it was still a good show.   Anyways the theme of the show to me was don’t judge a book by it’s cover with songs that said things like even though  I’m wearing heals, I’m not a stripper.  This episode actually really made me think a lot tonight.  I thought about how much I alone judge people everyday just by how they look or how they come off to me.  I never really break  out and try to get to know those people because I have already made a decision about them that I can’t shake.  I know this sounds bad but everyone “Asian stereotype” is unfair and pretty much stupid.  I wish these stereotypes didn’t exist but there are so many and everyone falls into one at one point or another, this is a reality that you can’t deny.  When I met some of the girls on my floor they reminded me of people who were mean to me in high school just by how they looked and it made me secretly dislike them for the longest time.  Then later on I got to know them better and now we are actually really good friends!  And there is another girl who came off to me as a really big whore but she actually is a virgin who is saving herself for marriage, which is something very respectful.  I don’t  know but just in this experience alone I have learned people aren’t always as they come off.  

Blog 47

Sleep.  It evades me on a nightly basis.  I am known for my problems with not being able to sleep; my mother still says I owe her for not allowing her to have a full night’s sleep for the first 4 years of my life.  Do you think people are just made this way?  I would really like to be able to sleep, I started taking that melatonin supplement to help aide me in my sleep endeavors.  Sometimes it works, other times not.  I think the thing that really drives me nuts is that my roommate snores.  It makes me so mad because it seems like she sleeps the whole freaking day, and then it is night time and she doesn’t have any trouble going back to sleep again at all!  It is not fair!  I am exhausted, but I just can’t seem to get my mind off of things.  I thought it was because I was worrying that I was forgetting to do things, so I made a to do list every night before going to bed hoping that I could then just let it go.  A friend of mine from home has the same trouble.  He will text me at 12:00 or so and ask if I am still awake.  We then text until one of us finally drops off.  I think he is usually the winner, I hate that.  I do not have trouble sleeping in my bed at home, at least when I have been back to visit.  I think the fact that it isn’t 5 feet off the floor, and the mattress isn’t 4 inches of stuffed plastic might have something to do with it.  I got one of those memory foam covers to put on it thinking this would help.  No. 

Blog 46

My heart is aching just a little bit right now.  My beloved Mia did not recognize me when I got home Friday night.  How is that for gratitude?  I saved that poor dog out of the middle of the road 3 summers ago, she was all torn up and skin and bones.  Some people around here thought that she might have been a ”bait” dog as a pup.  Now this was a new term for me, but I told you that I live out in the middle of nowhere.  Apparently a bait dog is one used to train dogs for dog fighting.  She is a mix of a doberman and something else, it is anyone’s guess.   When they are done with them they just throw them out at the side of the road.  I really love Mia so much because she is truly appreciative of everything we do for her.  She has the kindest, soft brown eyes in the world.  It is amazing to me that she has such a sweet disposition when she has every reason not to.    I have a lab named Molly who we have had since a pup as well.  She is a princess, and quite honestly as much as I love her – a real bitch sometimes!  That is what makes Mia that much easier to love!  So needless to say, not having her as excited to see me as I was to see her really kind of stabbed me in the heart!  I think I will have to spend my entire Christmas break spoiling her rotten so that this does not happen again.

Blog 45 Revised title

Okay bloggy, I got my days messed up.  I was supposed to rewrite the common place paper paragraph yesterday and today was supposed to be on my own.  I apologize for not getting it straight, but here we go.

                              The Victimization of American Women, or Not?

One day in high school I was eavesdropping on a conversation between two of my friends, which I should not have done but did nonetheless.  The conversation really bothered me because Alicia was talking to Sam about her weight.  This girl, who is one of the most slender girls I know with a pant size of 0-1, proceeded to say, “ I can’t even look at myself anymore, I’m way too fat and I have tried everything. I don’t know what else to do.”   Of course Sam told her she was crazy, as any good friend would do (and in this case it was the truth), but then the conversation took a turn down an avenue that was really quite disturbing to me.  The two of them began talking about purging to get thin. It sickened me to think that someone I knew and cared about was considering resorting to literally making herself sick to get thinner than she already was.   I couldn’t believe that anyone would go to such lengths to try to lose weight, but especially when her weight is already so low.  What in the world made her think that she was not attractive because she was too heavy?  I believe the answer to this can be found in the many images that we are all subjected to without even realizing it. We are being pulled into a very unhealthy way of thinking.

Still not sure about that title, that will definitely change and soon!  Not feeling any sort of  new idea coming on right now though.

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Well hello bloggy! I got to go home this weekend!  It happened so fast but I’m finally here!  I get to have my favorite Chinese food from here and see allll my friends from high school tonight! I’m so excited!  My best friend and me haven’t seen each other in five weeks and 2 days…yes we counted!

I was so surprised when my mom said she was on her way to et me!  I was at work opening and sending out mail like I always do and she told me!  But I work for Jim Tressel and I open his fan mail and such.  It is ridiculous What people say to him and then expect him to send him something in return or dedicate the rest of the season to him?  It is quite stupid if you ask me.  They will say things like I expected more out of you but will you sign this for me anyways?  Like it’s just stupid.  I don’t understand what goes through people’s minds sometimes.  I don’t understand how he gets through the day sometimes.  He is under so much pressure it’s crazy and you can definitely tell it takes a toll o him.  After they lost their first game of the season there was a huge difference in the attitude and over all feeling of the office.  I am so glad I am not in his shoes. He gets through it though and even if people are rude he writes them back anyways and I think he is such a good man.  Makes me mad to hear people talk bad about him, they have no idea.   

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SO tonight once again we get to blog about anything.  First off I seriously cannot wait to go home.  I have a count down going on in my room and each time I get to cross it off I get so excited.  I miss my family, my bed, my friends, and most importantly my dogs.  Sorry I just had to vent about that because if I did here everyone just tells me I’m crazy ad how much of a downer I am!  SO rude!  Anyways I just going to come out and say it, I hate boys.  All they do is cause pain and trouble and they never tell you what the heck they are thinking or what their intensions are.  It’s so frustrating!  My friend said to me tonight, “ I don’t understand why more girls aren’t lesbians,  boys are way to stupid for us.”  We all just laughed but still she is right!  Guys ( no offence to you who are I bet you are very  nice)  but they just never share their feelings or think they are too cool to be “tied down”  to one girl.  Ok I get it you want to seem cool for your friends but it just drives the girl you care about away.  And after a pretty long relationship with a semi longer break you don’t need to act like that anymore.  If you want to get back together just say so don’t string the girl along just too seem cool to friends and seem like a player.  That is my two cents

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Majors.  I thought I knew what I wanted to major in this time last year, elementary education, but I think that may not be the case any longer.  I have my mother to thank for that.  She is a teacher, and has been for 26 years.  I thought that it looked like fun to be around all of those little kids, and I think she thinks it is.  She decided that I needed to have some experience with these cute little guys before I went to college and invested too much time into education classes and then found out it wasn’t what I thought it would be.  There was a method to her madness.  She had me mentor with my kindergarten teacher for the last half of my senior year.   It was pretty fun at first, then 25 5 and 6 year olds at one time can be a little too much!  My mother didn’t stop there.  She then hired me to come to her school and help her tutor first grade remedial reading students for an hour twice a week.  Longest hour of my life.  You haven’t lived until you have tried to get a group of 5 hyperactive little kids to listen to you, much less learn something!  I think that teaching is an awesome profession, and my parents have said they wouldn’t have done anything differently, but I sure don’t think I can spend thirty years of my life doing that.  My problem is that I really don’t know what I want to do.  I realize that there are thousands of options, but I hope that I have a revelation in the near future so that I know what road I am headed down. 

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I have been having conversations with various upperclassmen about getting housing together for next year.  I don’t know about any of you, but I am still trying to get used to being here this quarter.  The idea of figuring out where I want to live next year seems a little premature to me!  I am beginning to get acquainted with the areas around campus, and I have made friends, but I am told that signing a lease by Christmas is a must to getting a decent place to live.  Wow.

I have talked to a few groups of friends about possibly living together next year.  Already I have realized that some of them are great as friends to hang out with on the weekends, but actually living with them everyday might be taking it a little too far.  On to of all of that, I have known these girls for a few short weeks!  How on earth would I know if we would be compatible in an apartment or not.  I can live with my roommate right now, someone I never met until the day she walked in with her stuff, but I know that if we had to share paying bills and cleaning there would be some tough times ahead!

Then there is the whole idea of picking out a decent place to live that is also safe.  I have heard horror stories about how the wiring can be screwed up and the plumbing not so great.  I don’t know anything about all of that, and the landlords know this!  I am pretty sure my Dad is going to want a final say on this, but I find this overwhelming!

I am perplexed by this whole situation and I think I will have to put it on the back burner for now!

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Tomorrow is election day, and after getting off the phone talking to my father, we have a conversation about how there is a renewal levy on the ballot for our school district.  For those of you not from Ohio, our public schools are mostly funded by taxes on property in the district itself.  The people of the community vote on whether or not they want their taxes to be raised to fund the schools.  Of course people don’t want their taxes raised, so most of the time it is quite a fight to get the levy’s passed in order to run the schools up to state standards.  The crazy thing about our levy is that it is a renewal, which according to the signs in everyone’s yards this means that their taxes will stay the same and not go up at all.  This levy failed last May when it first came on the ballot, and I think the district is afraid that it will fail again.  I was trying to figure out why, and my Dad had a key point to make:

People feel helpless when it comes to what happens to them in their daily lives.  They feel as if they don’t have much of a say about anything, but they do have power over this.  If  parents have had their hands tied when it came to things that had happened with their kids in school and felt very helpless about not being able to control the outcome, then this is their way of having some control.  The really crazy thing is that it is costing them $450 for their kids to participate in extracurricular activities, and it would cost them $0 if the levy passed.  AND the  levy passing will cost them nothing more either.  I would say there are a lot of helpless feelings out there then.  Would this helplessness go away if they were to become more directly involved in the political process?  The kids are the ones who lose in the long run.